And the BEAT goes on

tell it to my face dude.. people need to learn how to say it to my face. if you have some ish towards me, just tell it to my face. I don't want to find out through other sources. we need people to be more like this guy i met today on the road. i was picking up some chicken @ KFC. Then this guy almost hits me and tailgates me. I signal to switch to the left lane and he switches to. Because he was going to fast, he almost hit me. So he swerves to the right lane, rolls down his window, sticks up his middle finger, looks me square in the eye, and yells, "F*CK YOU!" yes, tell it to my face you MoFo. What a bitch. I was ready to flick him off back by my sister was in the passenger side. Then he tailgated me ALL the way past heritage. damn road rage. and his girlfriend was chillin' in the passenger side. so if you have a problem with me, tell it to my face. oh and it just goes to show, bachi [bad karma] bit me in the ass.

history lesson 101 my mom told me that a person shouldn't dig up the bad past, it's only gonna get you dirty... VERY DIRTY. so don't go there. just leave it be.

reminiscing yester year this morning i just had the urge to open one of my old diaries.. it was the filled with my hs days. I completely forgot got how naive i was when it came to boys and friends. I always led myself to dissappointment. it was stuff of old friendships, bitching, heartaches, and silly stuff like my 15th bday party. Then there was this list of people whom i considered as my friend... back when i thought a friend was someone you talked to on a daily basis... but i as i read the list, it started to show who my true friends were. I had this LONG list of people.. but were they really friends? or just aquintances. The more i thought about it, the more i realized they were only aquintances, cuz after that school year passed, i never spoke to half of them again. It made me wonder about my friends today. That list dropped to only a handful because i started realizing who my REAL friends are. It's sad to know that HS is over, but if true friends last forever. And that's the GOOD part of life.

HOT & STEAMY i went to joe's crab shack yesterday afternoon with kristen. ;) we went to buy our "We like 'em HOT & STEAMY" shirt. we bought one for christina too as a "going away" gift. We were gonna buy nisha one, but we ran out of money. =/ mm.. hadn't had crabs inna while. it was mighty good! and the blue crab dip was mm mm good. ah yes.. yum. There was this tall lanky guy that danced in front of our table and he reminded me of Neil! it was funny cuz he was trying to dance the electric slide. That Strawberry Daquiri was yummy too! oh man.. and we got full quick! we didn't have room for our usual banana foster desert. i was sad. =( but it's all good. we bought our shirts! haha. After that we rented "What a Girl Wants" and "Lizzie Mcguire". we felt pre-teenish all over again. yay for teenyboppers!

girl time! today i went to breakfast with the girls (phan, kristen, christina, nisha, christina a., vicky, and jess... oh and my sister when my mom dropped her off). ;) cindy dropped by too. ah yes. good times. we gave christina her "torrid" shirt. Just a little something to remember Kristen & me by. I haven't waken up THAT early inna long time. It was like 7:15 AM when i woke up. yikes. Kristen and I wore our "torrid" shirts to the breakfast. OMG.. we went to carrows and we weren't sure if anyone was there cuz we got there at 8:15. so we decided to go to starbucks just to wake us up. When we were there, the worker asked me if kristen and i worked at joe's because we were wearing the shirts. I said, "yeah, we work there." She asked which one. "Oh. The one in Long Beach." hahahah she had to stop and think and then she said, "OOHHh that one. That's kool!" hahahahahaha She actually thought we worked there. Kristen said i was evil. AM NOT! ;) Then when we left carrows i said, "Man, we still have to go to work, kristen!" She said, "I know! We must go to work." OH MAN.. i should wear this shirt more often. ;)

and i'm thinking about...... haha really? emierald? thinking? hmm.. when i do think it's usually when i'm lying in bed or driving.. and that's why i miss my turn sometimes. =/ but today i was driving to kyle's school and i was just staring at the road.. and i almost missed my turn. I noticed how i blog more about events than i do about my current thoughts. I guess it's cuz my thoughts are private. ;) haha jk. It's not that, it's just when i go online i'm usually preoccupied with talking to people that i only think about the conversation.. but it's not the deep thinking u know? i do think about things.. just not deep thinking about 'em. It's weird. If anything, i think about what i'm currently doing. For example, when i had to pick up kyle today...... ok wait.. bad example. i wasn't thinking. i was staring at the road and just going in a straight line. ok, when i'm typing this blog up i'm thinking of how i should put things and what i want to tell the world. S

screw college! >:( damn.. i hate the system with a passion. on top of that last night wasn't all great either. You should just hear them. If I'm the cause of the trouble, why the hell am i still here? Just kick me out! hell, i'll kick myself out! i wouldn't want to live with myself either if you think of me that way. I'm not asking for anything much, give me a couple bucks and i'll find a way to survive. UGH! I think they were both PMSing or something. UGh! and COLLEGE! their have a stoopid ass system that slow as HELL! I friggin' paid my damn fee 2 weeks before my due date and they still threaten to cancel my classes. WHAT THE F*CK?! Calling them didn't help much either. "It takes 5 days to get it to the Cashier's Office." WTF? I sent it in two weeks before my due date. "They don't go by postmark." ok, you're just making it a pain in the ass. So i had to cancel the check, go online and friggin' pay by plastic, and i think ok, all is good now. I call them back, tell them i cancelled my check and they say, "Even though you cancelled your check, it's going to be looked at as a 'dishonored payment'. They'll charge you $20 for the inconvenience. And it will be on your record." WTF? "They only allow two dishonored payments. After that they won't accept checks from you." who's FAULT is it? UUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHH! i hate the MFed up school.. grrrr. screw college. It can kiss my ass.

thank goodness for two feet well, i've started up exercising again. I took my sister out for a walk to heritage on thursday just cuz my mom said she needed the exercise. It was kinda funny the way my mom told me too. "Don't forget to walk Emily." Doode.. it's like she was dog or something. Kinda sad there. but yeah, we walked around the neighborhood and then to heritage. being the lazy ass i said asked why not brookhaven cuz it was closer. no she wanted the BIG playground. Then i thought, what the hell. it's for a good cause. we were on the swings for a good 30 -45 minutes. MAN! that thing really does help u workout one way or the other. we went up and down the stairs on the island a couple of times. that helped us bust out inna sweat.. it was SO hot that day. after, we lounged around on a bench underneath the tree to cool ourselves off. then the shade went away. that's when we decided to head on home where there was an AC waiting for us. solar met up with us and walked home with us.

back to school! i took my sister back to school shopping on friday. it reminded me so much of my Fatima days. goodness. all the crayon boxes, markers, red pencils, and baby wipes.. i kinda miss it. EVERYTHING was planned out for me.. but now, i have to plan for myself. i'm not being babied anymore. it was weird tho.. it kinda made me think WAY FAR ahead. like, is this how i'm gonna be with my kids? looking for the cheapest school supplies and hoping they won't know the difference between Crayola and RoseArt... cuz i kinda did when i was a kid. i hated the imitation crayons cuz their wax sucked. Then there was the backpacks.. which one will last a year? which one is cheapest? man.. go to target or walmart for cheap school supplies. oh! and the folders! i bought her 5 of the cheap 8 cent folders and one nice one because i knew as a kid i hated having the cheap paper folders. i wanted a shiny one that had a design. so i thought i'd give my sister something that i never had cuz my parents were cheap like that.

ok.. that's all for now. ;)