Thursday, December 25, 2003
it's christmas morning! too bad i didn't get all that i wanted under my christmas tree. how did i know that before unwrapping my gifts? because none of my gifts are shaped like a person. "all i want for christmas is you".. i miss my cousins.. heh for someone to actually wrap up someone and leave them on my doorstep would be quite a surprise. eh... at least my cousin Edsel is going to be able to stay for a couple days around christmas next year. YAY!
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i've grown to just take christmas as a spontaneous day. we were suppose to go to san diego but right now it doesn't seem like it's going to be happening. my dad's sick and it's raining. my parents were going to let me drive, but it's a little risky for my dad to be sick and out in the rain. so we cant make it. i hope we make something out of this christmas day. hey, we do it each year. sometimes we just stay home.. sometimes we go to san diego.. sometimes we just spend it with friends that treat us like family. and i think that's what we're going to do this year. spend it with friends in cerritos/artesia. i know my grandpa will be dissappointed that we can't make it, but with my dad's sickness, i don't think we can make the drive. i really wish we could go.......... and it makes me realize that life is so ironic. during the happiest times for the world, a selected number of people get hit by something that holds back their happiness... sickness.. work.. plane delays.. i guess it's a way of life that teaches us how to deal with life's curve balls and to work with what you have.
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i've grown to just take christmas as a spontaneous day. we were suppose to go to san diego but right now it doesn't seem like it's going to be happening. my dad's sick and it's raining. my parents were going to let me drive, but it's a little risky for my dad to be sick and out in the rain. so we cant make it. i hope we make something out of this christmas day. hey, we do it each year. sometimes we just stay home.. sometimes we go to san diego.. sometimes we just spend it with friends that treat us like family. and i think that's what we're going to do this year. spend it with friends in cerritos/artesia. i know my grandpa will be dissappointed that we can't make it, but with my dad's sickness, i don't think we can make the drive. i really wish we could go.......... and it makes me realize that life is so ironic. during the happiest times for the world, a selected number of people get hit by something that holds back their happiness... sickness.. work.. plane delays.. i guess it's a way of life that teaches us how to deal with life's curve balls and to work with what you have.
Monday, December 22, 2003
my weekend has consisted of none stop shopping.. and i have yet to finish. =/ there is surprisingly a lot more gifts under the tree this year.. or maybe it just seems that way because the boxes are bigger this year. either way, the tree looks quite full. i'm content. =) i think we spent more this year than any other year. i don't know how that came about, but it did. usually it's just a couple presents and the rest are gift certificates. this year.. OMG.. i haven't wrapped that many gifts inna LONG time. i guess we're a little more giving this year?? haha. i don't know. or maybe because we didn't get to enjoy christmas entirely last year, so we're trying to make it up through this year. what ever the reason, both my mom and i hadn't spent this much money before.
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we just put up the tree lights today because my dad hasn't been feeling well. for the first time in my house there's a mistletoe.. lol a little girl was selling them for a dollar in front of huffs hut. my mom said, "why not?" and now its hanging over the hallway by my front door. i never really knew the meaning of a mistletoe, so i looked it up on the net. heh. mistletoe = dung on a branch. GREAT. haha it's a parasitic plant that grows on oak where birds have left dung. the prettier mistletoe is grown in europe. those are the ones with the white flowers and the poisonous berries. the one grown here isn't as appealling. the story behind the mistletoe lead to the belief that it is a symbol for peace where warring spouses kiss and make up under it. if an unmarried couple kisses under it, it symbolizes a promise to be wed some day. it's also by superstitious belief that if a girl standing under it doesn't receive a kiss by the time she leaves it, she's not going to be married. heh. GREAT. i passed under it so many times... that ruins my chances of getting married. heh. i guess that list kristen and i made is gonna change --- im the last to get married... IF i get married. lol. anywho.. the history of the mistletoe fascinated me. there's so many superstitious beliefs and stories behind it. i wouldn't know if any of it are true.. but it doesn't hurt to play along with the belief.
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there's just something about this season that gets me. it's both one of my saddest and happiest time of the year. it's an emotional roller coaster as the year comes to a close. i guess cuz most of the major stuff that happens to me comes towards the end of the year. if you knew my life story, maybe you'd understand why i am the way i am... and why i really try to get myself and other people in the mood for christmas. i have lost the feeling of christmas a long time ago.. and i'm only trying to bring it back to myself with whatever i have left in me and with whomever is left standing besides me. don't get me wrong. i LOVE this season, but as i got older, i realized what i miss the most about the holiday. there was nothing i can do about the events that occured a long time ago, but i wish there was something i could have done. heck, i didn't know any better then. i didn't understand why things were happening. but it did. and i couldn't do anything to stop it. i guess it's safe to say that i grew up faster than the average 18 year old.
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we just put up the tree lights today because my dad hasn't been feeling well. for the first time in my house there's a mistletoe.. lol a little girl was selling them for a dollar in front of huffs hut. my mom said, "why not?" and now its hanging over the hallway by my front door. i never really knew the meaning of a mistletoe, so i looked it up on the net. heh. mistletoe = dung on a branch. GREAT. haha it's a parasitic plant that grows on oak where birds have left dung. the prettier mistletoe is grown in europe. those are the ones with the white flowers and the poisonous berries. the one grown here isn't as appealling. the story behind the mistletoe lead to the belief that it is a symbol for peace where warring spouses kiss and make up under it. if an unmarried couple kisses under it, it symbolizes a promise to be wed some day. it's also by superstitious belief that if a girl standing under it doesn't receive a kiss by the time she leaves it, she's not going to be married. heh. GREAT. i passed under it so many times... that ruins my chances of getting married. heh. i guess that list kristen and i made is gonna change --- im the last to get married... IF i get married. lol. anywho.. the history of the mistletoe fascinated me. there's so many superstitious beliefs and stories behind it. i wouldn't know if any of it are true.. but it doesn't hurt to play along with the belief.
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there's just something about this season that gets me. it's both one of my saddest and happiest time of the year. it's an emotional roller coaster as the year comes to a close. i guess cuz most of the major stuff that happens to me comes towards the end of the year. if you knew my life story, maybe you'd understand why i am the way i am... and why i really try to get myself and other people in the mood for christmas. i have lost the feeling of christmas a long time ago.. and i'm only trying to bring it back to myself with whatever i have left in me and with whomever is left standing besides me. don't get me wrong. i LOVE this season, but as i got older, i realized what i miss the most about the holiday. there was nothing i can do about the events that occured a long time ago, but i wish there was something i could have done. heck, i didn't know any better then. i didn't understand why things were happening. but it did. and i couldn't do anything to stop it. i guess it's safe to say that i grew up faster than the average 18 year old.
