And the BEAT goes on

midterms.. i passed my french midterm! yay! 90% baby! i passed my dance midterm! woo A-!! oh.. but i bombed my math test today... booo.. he friggin' gave us questions that we have never remotely did. i understand changing the numbers and all.. but dude! he never gave us, let alone teach us, a problem like that friggin' one! ugh.. that question screwed me over and over again. blargh.. i'm so tired too.. ok.. i'm done.

damn this crap is the weather getting to me or am i just soooo...blargh, i dunno wut it is. but wut ever it is, i wish it'd stop. ugh.. wut's my problem? something's on my LAST NERVE... i don't know what. maybe i just didn't have a lot of sleep the past week.. or maybe imma start my period again. ugh.. i dunno wut is contributing to the displacement of moods lately. i'm not mad all the time. and if u think what u saw was mad... THAT wasn't mad. that was me being irritated and irked about what has just been said or done... or i'm just annoyed. but mad is when i lock myself in my room, wishing i could just spit EVERYTHING out and yell at the top of my lungs. but if i'm no where near my room, u can find me giving a BIG ASS cold shoulder. but i don't get that relief. instead it's bottled up.. maybe that's y i have so much anger in me right now. it's like everytime something pisses me off, that feeling is being pushed into a layer of me through a needle. wutever mark the needle left becomes a scab. so maybe if i actually did wear my feelings on my sleeve, i would have some bloody ass sleeves... or at least bandaged up arms. BAH. today's prolly just a bad day... tired as hell.. just dragging my feet through the day. but in the end, i feel guilty for getting mad. i've wasted so much energy being mad when i could have done something better that makes me feel better. BLAGH! forget it.. i need to vent at someone... in person. writing it on here or venting to someone online doesn't help me much. it just makes me sound like a broken record that needs some sympathy. i don't need that from people. i just need their understanding that people go through stuff sometimes and just don't know how to express it. i also need the beach, a journal, and a blanket. perferrably some starbucks.

"i like the night life..." and i like to boogie. under the disco LIGGGHHHHHTTTTT yeah. ;) i really liked the decorations this year at HC. it was prolly the best decoration i've seen for HC at cerritos. i think highlight of my hc experience was making up a dance sequence with wei. oh and also seranading erin and her date during "Bended Knees". other than that.. it was ok. danced here and there. i arrived with kristen, erin, kirk, wei, and amy past 9PM. yeah.. so technically i only spent 2 1/2 - 3 hours at the dance when i usually spend the whole 4 hrs. it was worth seeing other people again tho.. like pamela.. kristen.. neil.. johnny.. scott.. max.. matt.. lucielle.. yeah.. there's definitely a lot more than that of the senior class that went. but it was all good times while reminiscing.. i wonder how it's going to be at the 10 yr. reunion. am i even going to go? hm... we'll see. but yeah.. scott still doesn't know how to do the body roll. i've been trying to teach him since freshmen year. it was fun dancing with liezl agaiN! and busting a bianca on the dance floor. omg--- celi almost ran over me tho. then i hear a "SEXY!!!" everyone was like wth?! and i turn around and yell back "HEY SEXY!!" aww.. JP still thinks i'm sexy. and then thong comes up to me with "arthritis". hahah good to see my old boys again! all at the same time! jerome took me to "austin's louge" aka "shag room" aka wrestling room. haha. yeah.. tables were in there this time. it was pretty kool. they had black lights in there. i hope my white bra didnt show thru.. bah.. it prolly did anyways. damnit. kristen and i got a characture... we look exactly the same! i just had a wider face and bigger hoop earings. aww yeah. i was groovy baby. oh and there was this BIG fan in the corner and kristen and i played with it. we did those sexy poses. pretending we were in those music videos with the slow mo dancing and messing with our hair. yeah. . good times. we were gonna ditch the dance and go to DT Disney.. but seeing that our decision on leaving was too late, we just stayed until the dance was over. we had to take erin home. if we didn't have to, leaving 20 minutes before the dance ended wouldn't have been a problem. we'd gladly leave. we weren't feeling the music towards the end... well of course until they played "hey ya" again.. then u just HAVE TO "shake it like a polaroid picture". ;) we walked back to the car and found it covered in ashes. we got ashes in our eyes too. it stings! then we grabbed some starbucks and just chilled at kristen's. i had to be home by 1.. isn't that a bummer??? bah..... u'd think i'd be given more time to hang out with people i RARELY see.. bah.. oh well.. ok.. g2g now. mr. sandman calls..